I can't right now. Every picture of a brunette girl and a black haired boy makes me want to...not cut, exactly, but do something repetitive and self-destructive.
Things I've done:
-gotten stuff ready for first day of work
-took a shower, exfoliated with (coconut oil and sugar) and shaved my legs
-mindfully flossed and brushed my teeth
-put on lotion
-took about four klonopins and 2 clonidines.
-straightened my room
-filled 8 bottles of water
I miss him. But 9 days sober means too much.
It means 1 buzz could bring me back to him, hurting him and me even more.